Lemme off!!!
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: fuck you

Oh my GOD I want off this fucking ship!!!

Wait....*deep breath* let me rephrase. I won't want off the ship. I want OTHER PEOPLE off the ship. 

Does this thing have airlocks?

Wow am I pissed. Maybe leftover hormones are making it worse. Or maybe this is 'cabin fever' or something. And I'm trying to find something decent to listen to, but it's just.....not........working!! ARGH!!!

The problem is that I can never really get away from these people. I mean, I can for awhile, but there's only so much time I can spend around other places on the ship without having to come back to get food or wash or just having Jennifer track me down like a bloodhound and ever so politely remind me that I need to be taking sup with the other humans.

I'm SICK of some of these humans. Seriously.

We really only get to see our small groups. When we saw Jupiter, that was the only time we were with more people than just our own lunch crew, and it made me feel good to know that our little group wasn't "it" for the whole ship. But we haven't seen any of those people since. I wonder if they're doing this to us on purpose. Maybe it's an experiment. Maybe they want to see if we'll get violent with each other. Because honestly, I could. Right now, I could.

I know I'm being vague. I'm trying to calm down. It's not even that big a deal. Under other circumstances, I might even be happy with what's going on around here. See, the thing is that apparently I'm liked by practically everyone else. Why is this a problem, you ask?

I'm simply not used to it.

I'm not used to so many people demanding so much of my time. Being sociable is exhausting for me under the best of circumstances, and I can't hang around others for more than a couple of hours without becoming bored and restless. There are very few people I know with whom I can spend more than that long with and be cool with it, with them not getting on my nerves or making me anxious.

So, now, with nothing else to take my time away from getting to know folks, I feel like I'm being bombarded with requests to "hang out." It's not like once every couple of weeks like I'm used to. It's every fucking DAY.

I know this must seem crazy to some folks. Pissed off because people want to hang out with you? Tiffany, you are batty. You need to be in an insane asylum. Get thee hence.

But it's true. Okay, there are a couple people here I can stand to hang with on a more or less constant basis. Justin's my buddy from back home, so he's always welcome, of course. And this again might be my hormones talking, but I can hang with a couple of the guys because I'm attracted to them and/or find them oh so mysterioso. Michael. Nhlanhla. In fact, Nhlanhla and I spent an entire day together here a couple days ago, wandering the ship and talking about spirituality and our backgrounds and it was uber cool.

Everyone else, though.....

I have discovered that Zaira is young. I mean immature young, stupid young, and I just can't abide that. She reminds me of one of my students. Oi!

And Linda is clingy. I was really nice to her in the beginning because I can totally relate to how she might be feeling. It hasn't been THAT long since I was really large myself. But after a few meetings she decided that we were best friends, and she's just so darn desperate. It's just uncomfortable, especially when she won't take a hint and go away. I don't want to be mean to her, but dayum, Gina!

Amy and I were getting along at first, of course, but that might have run its course by now. We don't have a lot in common, but we still hang out because, well, we're apparently not allowed to hang out with anyone else but this group. The same is true of Adrien and Lord Jim, our resident "old farts," who frankly would rather hang out with each other because maybe they feel they can't keep up with the rest of us? Whatever. Anyway, some of the things Adrien says sometimes just rankle. In a nutshell, I find him annoying.

There are a couple folks I haven't hung out much with. Kaori and Elizabeth remain somewhat elusive. Mayhap I should switch my attention to them and see if anything better develops. But Kaori is young (another possible student type situation), and Elizabeth...well, she just scares me in the sense that she's an ultra bohemian, and I might not fit into HER realm.

But I really need to do something before I wind up going postal on one of the others.

Oh my god. There's a knock at my door. Can't they just leave me alone???